xmass

4 weeks to xmass, 4 weeks 4 things to change...if I was doubt now I´m sure that 2012 will remain as d hardest one of my life... I´ve lost during this year, my job, my car(i miss u), my bike, and seems like I´ll lose also my girl... hehehe what else can i ask? Bad luck??? nah... Im d only responsible of all this mess dat my life became, bad decisions, bad moves, a lot of bulshit, and now Im paying d price, one thing 4 sure I´ve learned is 2 never walk withou a plan B...
I´m looking forward 4 d end of Year, and start fresh for 2013. nothing lasts 4ever, and I know this pain will END...coz I´ve paid already my debts.

47 OF 52

and here Im, facing another unknow week, not having a clue how its gonna flow, what´s gonna happen, but full of hope, hope 4 better things, hope for a change, hope to keep d hope up, and not down... d weekend was cool, not much thing to share, glad for the great victory of LH...
got to start packing my stuff to move from here...

VA_191112
@757am

nEver give uP...NEVER!!!

this one is 4 my faith, I dont lose it... i keep it up, coz i trust in God, n i know He Wont let me down...although facing tough times, I know d best iz still 2 come... 10x Pai

aNother step towards new pagE oF mYliFe

went 2day 2 d interview @ CncPhillips, small office but with big project as they hold blocks 36 & 37 4 d oil and gaz business. according to him they r moving to Kimpa Vita Building in 2013. it went all okay, now i just hve to wait 4 deir call.

thanks Lord

VA_11.14.12

vendo as horas a passarem...

5.55pm another day passing by. its hard to stay home all day doing shit. my meeting at CCP is scheduled for 2morrow. I must confess dat Im tired of all this. Tired of staying home, tired of losing my things, and slowly losing my autoestima...
i dont know how, or what else to do...Im feeling so powerless...ohhh Lord, pls help me...

i love daise, but I know Im losing her, and its even more painfull when i know theres none i can do 2 change things...


bRooklyn

VA131112

uPs n dOwns...

7.07am, another day, another tough day, full of hope, dreams, all based on a bright future. its been a long time since i woke from bed at this time and went 2 work...of God i miss dat...
i woke up with mixed feelings, feeling impotente, vejo-me a perder a unica pessoa k d momento me faz sentir feliz, a unica pessoa k d momente me transmite alegria. n tenho conseguido cumprir o meu papel d namorado, e todos os dias sinto k a kker mmento ela vai desistir d mim(e n serei eu a sensura-la). entendo mto bem as suas frustraçoes. sei k neste mmento é um trabalho k preciso.
notei k o email enviado pela swift tem as datas trocadas, diz quartafeira 13, mas hoje é terceirafeira 13... i nid to 2chk dis.
if its 2days, i just hope it all goes well @ ConocoPhilips...

VA_13.11.12@713am

bRooklyn...

diPanda...11Novembro...

extended weekend, while many pple went travelling, other to the beach, I had to stay home, jobless, carless, bikeless, less less less... many thoughts came up to my mind, reminding me about many things back on my past. Pensei acerca d mtas decisoes erradas k tive na vida, mtas vezes movido p emoçoes, decisoes k hje sinto terem sido tremendamente ERRADAS...custou-me a mulher(xu), Ive lost my car, my bike, coz I wasnt smart enough to think that I had 2 get rid of VA place, and now Im here facing one of hardest days of my life...
Im trying hard, d only thing left is my crib, and Im holding strong not 2 sell it, and I dont wanna do it...
After weeks of frustrations, something came up to boost up my mood. Got a call from swift 4 d interview with CPhilips....already had one with BV, and as always it went gud, they r about 2 call me around this week... anything will be blessing 4 me, coz all i nid is a JOB...

bRooklyn
VA_12.11.12@11.54pm