mixed emotions, still feels like the same time

Hi my blog... its been a while since I last posted something... sorry for that. its been crazy out here... a lot of things has changed, new things happening.
you know I came here when im feeling down, duvidoso, enfim xeio d merdas na cabeça... pois bem aqui vao as novidades...
remember Vaniria? oh sure u do... well the girl finaly made up her mind, and came back, yes!! came back for good, with full of luv and passion. We´ve been spending some good times together, and even tough i´m cautious, things could not be better.
but from the other side, Deise is suffering, and I don't know what to do to stop dat, coz if from one side I see extremely difficult to have a future with her, on the other side, I still think she´s a good girl, loyal, cute, and amazing.
I trapped not knowing what to do, and it seems the story is about to repeat, just like when I had Xu and Ninfa (yeah,) and I cant afford to have another war, and also I feel bad having her crying and suffering... I don't know what to do my God...
other stuff happening. I have my credit from BAI almost completed, and when I get it, I must be focused and stick to my plan (get a minibus or something to give cash). got few bills to settle, and will try to close this month:
Eli
Mobilia
Murapa
Rent
Fabio

one 4 now...

Srt8

It's been now 4 months since I got my Srt8 and so far I like it, although I wanted to say I luv it. Apart from d suspension problems something dat worries me is the issue with d battery!!! Well I don't know if dats d problem. I once got stuck on d road because of it,  I've changed it but still had another issue when traveled to malange. It kept running but all was dead..radio, AC and lights but it came back on by it self. Then I must have had few other episodes dat I had to keep trying to turn it on. And today after dropping my girl home d car car just refuses to start!!! Lights on dash panel flickers making strange noises, remote key not locking/unlocking doors, no horn no radio...nothing!!!

Could this be d battery or is something worst... I really hope is just d battery coz this deal is getting very xpensive to me and I can't afford to keep spending money on it

The need of having a family

Each and everyday I'm feeling the need of having my family, my wife to luv and care to share moments of quality, but I feel I've lost back in those days the chance of doing so.

What I have now does not think the way I want. That dude Raquel is a cute girl, and I can see she Luvs me, but that's not what I want. I need a women in my life someone to help me also.

I feel strongly that Vaniria fucked with someone else, dats why she denies to talk to me. I won't rush and will be patient. I now the truth will came 

Cidade podre...

Já n se consegue dormir e de facto adormecer... Dormir um sono tranquilo 'e azar...pk enquanto dormes há outros a deambularem a procura da primeira oportunidade p nos lixarem. E o Hje aconteceu com o meu querido Jeep...

Fodasse

I'm exited!!!

I was down, sad and anxious. I have my heart full of luv and passion, eager to share with someone. I wanna take care of a women luv n respect her, but unfortunately what I wanted turned down to be a full BS, and dat made me sad. My I promised not to change my way, I kept my goal knowing dat one day she would came.

It seems like she has arrived :)

It all started from "likes" in Instagram :) oh yeah social network. Every day I had likes from her, and dat called my eyes, n curiosity. So today I wassup her and really enjoyed chatting with her.

Although she's 24 but seems very mature(hope not mistaken). She has a kid, and a job :) 

We spoke for about all day...

Her name is Yanessy 

Home sweet home

Today I gave one step in getting my crib. I found a good place and made the payment for 4 months. I now have ahead another fight to find 8k and settle the deal for one year. I'm happy, although I wanted it to be mine. 

Still I have other pending issues to resolve like the payment of jeep, Murapa and BESA loan.

I hope this month to close few of the bills I got. I will cool down Fabio and ask him for some more time. I planning to pay some with the loan from BAI. 

Next step will be to start doing some arrangements on the flat, like changing the tiles, paint, redo d doors and windows, change the lockers, etc etc. them will have to think about the furniture, but for now I will still use my old bed and closet to keep myself installed.

Thank you Father.

Crib

Found a crib @ corea. The location is not the best but the house is good. Rent will be 800 p month, so it's good. I need to pay now 6months 4800 and start moving coz I can't stand no more at mom place. I'm feeling much better than last week my heart is starting to wake up and rebuild it self. I'm trying to recover D back to me, and I hope she still likes me.

Bye