It feels
good to be back home, J after almost 15 days aways from my family, I back to my town…
it feels good, but at the same time a bit strange, I feel like empty,
dislocated, like if something is missing…
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Ok, here am…
and as I was saying, im feeling kinda of empty. After coming from this trip,
while at the airport I got the feeling of needing my family(wife n kids)
waiting for me there, received with a big Hug, and I was sad knowing that was
not possible, coz I don’t have a family!!! Its like my time to became a husband
has arrived, and I wanna do it right, luv my wife, please her and above all
give her a lot of respect…this is one of my priorities for 2013
I know ain´t
got much choices, things with D seems a bit grey, I don’t feel her, its like
she´s only with me coz she needs from time to time my help($$), I don’t know,
and I will confront her about us, I think is time, either for us to move on, or
stop here and live our lives alone. K, its another complicated story, she made
clear dat having a husband is not part of her plans, so 4get it… im thinkin of
H… we´ve been through a lot of shit, but I feel I still care for her, and I don’t
wanna keep on playing this fool role, like supporting her($) and in everything
she requests…nah, I don’t want dat. When I get a chance I will talk straight 2
her, and see if she wants or not… d rest is nothing.
This journey
in BGA was profitable, I able to pay few of my bills, have some pocket cash,
and some at d bank…it was really cool, but work wise, i´m not dat confident
about this project(Bweza), it’s a big project something dat im sure will change
ppls lives, but I don’t know if dats what I want to do. There´s d issue of
knowledge of the technology involved on it, which is something I don’t master(lunix
and DB), so if I move on its gonna be very tough. My first goal was achieved,
which was to have some breath financially, and d help from Fernando was more
dan welcome. But now coming home(mom) I don’t feel confortable, I was use to
have my space, my small crib with my things(I know I couldn’t afford it no
more), but still I need a place to live, I need a car to drive, and right now
my Benz dream will be postponed for a while, a small car($10,000 worth) will be
more dan enough.
I have d
guys from CcP who wants me 2 star working next January the 7th , but
so far I did not have anything written(as well as Bweza no contract yet!!!), so
I don’t know how its gonna be.
For now, I will
just enjoy this Xmas Season with my family(dad, mom, brothers and rest), and
wait 4 d new year…
Ciao…
Additional info…
Next week i
need to pay to get my house papers ($1,800), pay my Boy´s school, and other
stuff, ehi, don’t 4get d iPad of Xary Pi PLEASE!!!
I GOT
ENOUGH!!!!
Fucke hell no!!! its enough, D is trying to
drive me crazy, and I cant accept dat…man, I´ve been away for 15 fucken days,
and she cant make a fucken call using the airtime dat I bought with my fucken
money??? Fuck u bitch… I´ll never ever see d color of my money again, NEVER!!!
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